Tuesday, September 30, 2008

I'm a Crappy Person

I have a bad habit of trashing Scott. The things I say are not untrue. But it hit me last night that I really shouldn't trash him as much as I do. And the fact that I say things about him to entertain others makes me a crappy shallow person. Scott has issues, he's not perfect, and we argue alot. But he can be so nice, and he loves to play with Sean, and Sean adores him. He can be easy to talk to.
I have to find a way to get the tension that I feel over the things that go on in our relationship out without being such a crappy person and talking so bad about him and making fun of him.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Moose Breakfast, Corn Maze and Sean

I woke up close to 8 this morning and Sean wasn't making a peep. I was surprised, so I went ahead and took my shower. When I got done, I opened his door and he was laying in the floor watching scooby doo. We played in his room for a while. Finally close to 9 we headed downstairs. We ate a light breakfast and played for a while. He was a stinkerpot when it came time to get dressed and when it was time to get in the car. We met Joe at the Moose Cafe for breakfast at 10:30. As soon as we walked in, Sean saw the huge moose and called it a horsey!
Sean was in a MOOD at the resturant. He was being difficult.
After brunch, we went to the farmers market next door and walked around. Sean's mood was a little better, but not much. He wanted to touch everything. At one point he picked up an apple and almost took a bite before I could get it away.
We went to Joe's house and hung out for a little while. Sean and Joe had fun playing - well, I know that Sean did - I hope Joe did. Sean was running around, hiding in the closet, riding his deigo trike, etc... Sean opened Joe's refridgerator, grabbed a stick of butter and ran into his bedroom and into the closet!
We came home and I finally got Sean to take a nap.
After his nap, we decided to go to the corn maze that's about 30 min away. None of us have ever been to a corn maze. Scott and I had been to a mazed at a beach a few years ago, but it wasn't corn. So, we went through the first part of the maze fairly easily. When we got to phase 2, it got pretty frustrating. We kept going in circles. We were hot, sweaty, itchy, etc... Sean was getting tired and although Scott tried to carry him on his shoulders, and his arms, Sean just really wanted me. So, I carried him while I could, and then held his hand part of the time. We were finally frustrated enough and ended up sitting down to let Sean rest. After that we went in circles a little longer, found our way to a familar spot, cut through the corn, and found our way out. I think it'll be a long while before we visit again.
I'm tired, broke, and dreading waking up early tomorrow for work, but had a good weekend!!!

Friday, September 26, 2008

Green Beans and Molassas

We went to eat tonight at the Moose Cafe. Wanna know a secret? I went there last night with my friends Joe and Jenny too!
The Moose is wonderful!
Sean was being a little bit of a stinkerpot at dinner. When he finally got around to eating HIS food, he was also asking what was on the table, and that he wanted it.... so I had to put some molassas on his plate - then...you guessed it - he started dipping his green beans in it and eating them. Then he was eating some of my fries -and he wanted ketchup- then he started dipping his green beans in ketchup. Whatever it takes to get him to eat it, right?
Last night when we had gone to Ingles and we got a pack of little pumpkins. Sean's been playing with one since then - the rest were on the kitchen table - just a little bit ago he started getting them off the table and putting them on the bottom step, he was so proud of himself too.
After the pumpkin incident, Sean got his stool out of the kitchen (which is supposed to stay in the bathroom to help him reach the potty and the sink - but ya know how that goes....). He put it on his head and was walking through the living room singing happy birthday. (but to who??)

Yesterday was the first day that it was cool, so Sean wore his spiderman jacket to daycare. He was SOOOOOOO excited!!!
It's raining today, so he wore the awesome raincoat that i bought him at the thrift sale last weekend!

Sean was just tickling Scott and he said "i love you" - that's the first time he's told someone that without being told first. Very sweet!!!

Sean's been a stinker about going to bed lately.

Gas is still short.

My cough is finally getting better. I've been sneezy the past two days, but that's ok.

I LOVED going to dinner with Joe and Jenny last night. It was so much fun!!! Scott kept Sean and took him to the park to play while I was gone.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Gas crisis continues....

So, gas is still in short supply now. Some stations are gettins shipments and running out within a short time frame.
We ended up driving to SC to get gas tonight, just to relieve the stress of not knowing...and we still had to wait an hour and a half to get $40 in gas.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Ice/Water Dispensor Discovery

Sean has just discovered the joy of the ice/water dispensor that is built into the fridge.
Last night he added LOTS of ice to my cup, and tonight he helped himself to some water.
He has also learned how to open the fridge/freezer this week. I'm sure the popcicles that were in the freezer helped with that discovery. He wasn't shy about opening it up and getting more popcicles out. He had the cutest grin on his face when he'd get one - like he'd made the greatest discovery in the world!

Sean drew a nice big purple line on his face - all the way back to his ear today at daycare.

He got to see next to his girlfriend Madison for breakfast this morning.

I tried to call the doctor today because I'm still coughing. It was getting better over the weekend, but it seems to be getting worse again. They didn't call me back. Yet.

We took Sean to the park last night. He learned how to slide on his belly. It was cute. I took some pics and videos with my phone - I just need to upload them.

I want to go visit a corn maze or ghost town this weekend, but it all depends on the gas situation. And of course if I have the money for us to do that.

Have I mentioned that I love fall?? Monday was the first day of fall, and it was great!! The weather is cooler - my windows are open and the AC is off. There's something about this time of year that makes me both very happy, and very melencholy.

GAS


I never thought that we'd be in the middle of a gas shortage. I'm amazed at how things are. A hurricane hit 2 weeks ago in Texas. Gas supplies have been low since before the hurricane hit, but now they are really scarce. More stations seemed to be getting gas near the weekend, but this week it's sad and a little scary that gas is so hard to find. Not just in my town - but all the surrounding towns too. People are sitting in line for a hour or so at a time - just to get gas as soon as somewhere gets a shipment. Police are directing traffic at the stations.

Tonight cars were lined up about 2 miles at the Enmark station, as the tanker filled up the gas, people waited... An hour and a half later, the line didn't seem any shorter as we drove by.

Monday, September 22, 2008

I not your girlfriend

So... there's been a few times lately when Sean has been playing and we're chatting back and forth, and i'll say "i love you" and he'll say it back, or say he don't love me, or whatever he feels like saying at the time - then he'll say "i not your girlfriend" - it's so funny!!!
It looks like ta-ta has some competition at daycare. Ta-ta (taylin) has been Sean's girlfriend for a while now. Friday morning she pulled out a chair for Sean to sit beside her... But Sean turned and went and sat next to Maddie! He rubbed her arm and said "my maddie" and then started touching her curls.
I've been sick for a couple of weeks now. I went to the dr on Wednesday and she decided it is walking pneumonia... so, I finished my antibiotics yesterday - hopefullly all this mess will go away!
Yesterday morning was the first day that I woke up feeling good in a while, and Sean woke up in an incrediably good mood. We played some inside, and it was in the 50's outside (I love the mountains!!!). We went on the deck and played with sidewalk chalk. Sean had me drawing butterflys, ABC's, circles, anything he could think of. Then we got dressed and went to a park. We'd only been to this park a couple of times, but it's a good one. He played on the playground for a little bit, then I got his trike out of the trunk and we took off along the walking trail. He peddled his little heart out!!! He had to stop a couple of times to pick a flower (weeds, grass, etc), and he intentionally went into the grass so he would fall off a couple of times. We played on the playground stuff a little more, then we headed to the Chilren's consignment sale (we had gotten him a lot of stuff Saturday and Sunday was half price day). After we picked up a couple of things, we went to walmart to buy groceries, then headed home. A busy but good day.
I am so blessed to have such a good boy!!
A few times on Sunday, Sean would do something to hurt me (hit, pinch, bite) and when I'd say something to him about it, he would look at me and say "I sorry". I asked if he has to say that alot at daycare :)
I gotta get ready for work!! I'm gonna be late!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

MINE

Is it bad that I want some things to be just mine?
It seems to be an on going battle. I shouldn't have to tell another adult to leave MY stuff alone, right? Not to touch it, borrow it, steal it, etc..., right?
The latest of this battle is two-fold.
Not too long ago I bought 2 printers from Sam's. One for Scott and one for me. Scott has been using his, but I haven't needed to print anything so I didn't set mine up yet. So, today I find out that Scott used up all of his printer cartridge and then helped himself to mine. WTF??? Why was that ok? Without even asking?
Then this afternoon, Scott came downstairs and said he had a confession to make. Oh my, those are usually doozies - Apparently he had been upstairs and for some reason decided to take two big swigs of MY cough syrup. My PERSCRIPTION cough syrup. And the only reason he told me? Because he started to feel bad physically afterward and was afraid it was mixing incorrectly with the tons of addreall he's eaten in the past 4 days (that he's stayed awake and not slept during).
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I should have locked my cough syrup in the safe. The safe that I had to buy to keep him away from my other medicines because he thinks if I have something that it is his as well!
Anyone wonder why I wish I was an ex-wife?

Randomness

I hate viral illnesses. I hate even more paying a doctor money to tell you that an illness is viral.
I've had a horrible cough for over a week now - it's a deep chest sounding cough that sounds like bronchitis or pneumonia - only it dosen't feel like it's in my lungs. So, I paid a doc $50 the other day to tell me that it' s viral and gave me cough pills and couch syrup.

Sean has a My Size Batman that is almost as tall as he is. For a long time he was terrified of it, but now he loves it. Two nights ago Sean gave batman a spanking and put him in timeout. It was too cute! I'm not sure what the offense was, but it must have been bad to get both a spanking and timeout!
He also had a brush and was brushing batman's hair. Kinda funny since Batman has a platic head and no visable hair.

When we got to daycare on Thursday to pick Sean up, he was on the far end of the playground, climbing the fence. It freaked me out. (Meanwhile the teacher was sitting on her butt not doing a thing about it...) Scott talked to him about it, and on the way home Sean told me that he didn't want a spanking for it. I explained to him that he wouldn't get one unless he did it again. The next morning when we got to daycare, as I was getting Sean out of the car he told me that he wasn't gonna climb the fence.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Sick People (and I don't mean a cold)

Not too long after we moved, I found an article online about the in-home daycare that Sean had stayed at for the first approx 9 months of his life, where the husband of the caregiver had been arrested for molesting possibly two girls that were in the daycare. I had known this couple for many years, lived near them, they kept my neice, etc... so the news was shocking, but it did explain why she had to close suddenly.
For some reason tonight I looked up online to see if there were any other news about him.
Apparetly they had his sentencing in July and he got 5 years jail time and 5 years parole.
When I heard about it, I immediately thought of one sweet girl that was in the daycare who had already been though hell in her short life, and my gut told me it was her. In the newstory that I saw tonight, that was confirmed. It showed her "mother" (grandmother actually, but she is more of a mother to this sweet girl than her "real" mom ever was), and it showed her cousin's mom in the courtroom too (the second little girl that was possibly moletested, but as a plea deal he was only charged with one).
I don't get it. What makes people do crazy things like this? I knew this man, his wife, their kids, their grandkids.... I left my son with them. I had alot of respect for them, and even before tonight questioned if it was really true. I am thankful that Sean was too young to realize what was going on if anything ever did happen while he was there. I hope and pray that these little girls can grow up and move beyond this, and overcome any scars that this may leave on their lives.

Paranoia

I'm sick.
There. I said it. I have a horrible cough.
I paid a guy $50 yesterday to tell me it was viral and to give me cough meds.
I found that I get emotional when I'm sick. Two of my friends made me tear up yesterday - over stupid stuff that should not have bothered me! AND I'm paranoid when I'm sick. My boss's door was shut, then open, then there was an HR person in there, and I was sure they were preparing to fire me. Why? Cause I'm nuts. I've done nothing wrong. I do my job well to the best of my knowledge. Just crazy some days I guess.

Friday, September 5, 2008

Jesus

When Sean was sick two weeks ago, he was so miserable that he wanted mommy to hold him like a baby and he told me "Jesus" - he wanted me to sing Jesus to him. So, there we sat, for a long time, me holding him, rocking like a baby, and singing Jesus Loves Me.
Since then he's become more instant on saying Jesus at night- which is saying his prayers to thank Jesus for his family, friends, and teachers (with our help of course).
He has a book of Jesus Loves the little children - it's very sweet when he hands it to us and says Jesus. Tonight he tried signing it with Scott as he sang it to him.
It's sweet to watch him grasp Jesus - in the way only a 2 year old can!

Sean's Week

Sean's had an interesting week this week...
Saturday we went to the doc for croup
Sunday we spent the day in SC playing with Esme's toys
Monday we were lazy and hung around the house
Tuesday he went back to daycare and his little girlfriend bit him on the arm. She said she was sorry and he said he still loves her :)
Wednesday he wouldn't sit down for dinner and when I wouldn't hold him, he started bawling and when I laughed at him the said "leave me awone!!!" - just made me laugh more (of course then I hugged him and let him sit in my lap for the rest of dinner)
Thursday when I picked him up from daycare he didn't have his socks on - just his shoes. When we went to look for his socks, one of his teachers told me that he had taken them off outside and filled them up with dirt! (I later found out that he also did the twist in the dirt in his socks!
Friday he and his best friend Maverick got into a fight over a truck...Rica said he wasn't about to let go of that!

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Weekend

This past weekend was a pretty good one. I was supposed to be oncall, but my friend Joe needed to be off call next weekend, so we traded.
When I picked Sean up from daycare on Friday he had a bad cough and I could see then that we'd be at the doc on Saturday.
Friday night we just made dinner and played. Sean went to bed by 8:30 and I laid in bed a read a new blog that I had gotten very interested in until my laptop died, then I went to bed. Scott had a friend over.
Saturday I called and got Sean a doctor's appointment. I was shocked when they told me that the doc could see him at 9:45 - it was 9:12, I hadn't had a shower, and the dr is a 25 min drive. Talk about getting ready very FAST!! The doc walked in the door and said right away that it was croup (shocker!)...and so...we started on steriods. We didn't do much on Saturday, mostly just played around the house.
I read more of the blog that I had started reading. Without going into much detail, the person in the blog had been through some very trying times this year, and in her blog she showed all the normal human emotions, but she also showed amazing faith in God. Her story was amazing, but her faith and love for others in the midst of her own hell was amazing.
I woke up Sunday morning a bit homesick for my church and my friends. I felt like going to church, but knew the church I wanted to go to was my church - in my home town. I started not to go because Sean was sick and couldn't go to the nursery, and I didn't know if I should spend the money on gas. But after a little while, I decided it was what I really wanted to do.
I got Sean ready and we headed to SC for the day. We got to church a few minutes early.
I got to see my friend Susan, then I ran into my friend Amy. Amy and I met in first grade, so it was great to see her, and I sat with her and her sister Keleigh. Before going in I saw my friend Gloria, and she sat with us. I had really hoped that I'd get to see Gloria, I miss her very much. After church Gloria asked what our plans were, and since we didn't really have anything planned we went to her house. I had a wonderful day. It was great to spend time with Gloria and talk and just be. Gloria has a granddaughter that is 2 months younger than Sean, so she had alot of toys for Sean to play with (even pink cinderilla slippers - should've taken a pic of that!!).
At the end of the day, we ended up going to the city park for the labor day concert. We went to Robin's house and walked to the park from there. It was really hard to hear at the park, but it was still nice to spend the time there.
After the concert, we walked back, I took Gloria home, and headed back to NC.
The drive home was long, Sean was worn out and slept the whole way home, but all in all, that was a great day! It did make me miss my friends and church even more though.
Monday turned into a lazy day. We mostly just played around the house, until around 6:30 when we went to the grocery store and to get dinner from Chick-fil-A.
Sean did not sleep good last night, and ended up half the night. Luckily Scott was up and helped some with him so I could try to sleep.
He is in bed now, so hopefully he'll sleep good tonight. We gotta get up early tomorrow because I have a dr. appt.
I've rattled on and on enough!

Introduction....

I've thought of blogging from time to time, but anytime I've started, I haven't stuck with it.
Can I this time? We'll see.
I find that I normally have a lot to say and don't have anywhere to say it. I plan to use this to post thoughts, feelings, events, etc.. about my life - the good and the bad.